New Years Day '94...

14 years ago today, you spent the first half hour of your life squinting up at me as I walked you round the delivery room whilst the doc put your Mum back together again - we had a moment that can't be taken away from me and is one I will never forget... Nor will I forget all the happy memories of our time together - as you probably don't remember any of them, having had 'other' memories drummed into you, you will just have to take my word for it that they happened...

I'm still here Holly (the wolves haven't got me yet..!) and I have had a year so full of experiences that I would have loved to tell you about - from Arctic Greenland to the Masai Mara, I won't forget my 50th year...

I haven't tried to contact you this year as you have made it quite clear that you don't want me to - but if you ever read this Holly, I want you to know that I was thinking about you, as I always do, and I was hoping that as you get older you are developing past the person who could write that awful letter into someone who understands that there is no black and white in life - just different shades of grey... Maybe that'll make sense in another 10 years...!

Lots of Love,
Dad.